sag harbor really hit a little too close to home lol.
Sag Harbor completely twisted and messed with emotions in more ways than one. Benji talking about his childhood just really got to me. Him talking about how once you get older, you stop going to sag harbor, reminded me of my own childhood memory when I was in sixth grade, my friends and I would go to the park every Sunday, but then one day we just stopped. We didn't know that day was going to be our last day, but it was and my stomach stinks thinking about how times changed.
What made reading Sag Harbor difficult was how Benji talked about how things different things are when you get older. I didn't like that, it made me really sad because usually when you grow up, you start caring less about your family, and your friends, and traditions and you just end up starting this new separate life, while you still having people waiting behind, hoping you'll come back and everything will go back to the way it was. The thing is you tell yourself now, "Oh I won't be that kind of person, oh I won't change." but the problem is, you do. And it's inevitable and it hurts that you can't control that because change is a part of life, it's what helps you grow.
Sag Harbor just really made me miss my childhood, and how innocent I was back then, and how much I wish I could turn back time and escape the impending doom of adulthood, which is so terrible and terrifying. But, the matter of the fact is, things change quickly and Sag Harbor was a great reminder of that.
What made reading Sag Harbor difficult was how Benji talked about how things different things are when you get older. I didn't like that, it made me really sad because usually when you grow up, you start caring less about your family, and your friends, and traditions and you just end up starting this new separate life, while you still having people waiting behind, hoping you'll come back and everything will go back to the way it was. The thing is you tell yourself now, "Oh I won't be that kind of person, oh I won't change." but the problem is, you do. And it's inevitable and it hurts that you can't control that because change is a part of life, it's what helps you grow.
Sag Harbor just really made me miss my childhood, and how innocent I was back then, and how much I wish I could turn back time and escape the impending doom of adulthood, which is so terrible and terrifying. But, the matter of the fact is, things change quickly and Sag Harbor was a great reminder of that.
Thank you for sharing in this blog post. I could tell it came from a very vulnerable place. I look back on my childhood sometimes and I understand where you're coming from. It's sad to think about how the things that used to matter so much and that you thought would matter forever seem so unimportant now. I only hope that someday in the future things will start to matter again, maybe in a different way, and maybe even in a better way, because now you will know what it feels like to have lost them and know that you have overcome that period and will never lose them again.
ReplyDeleteNice post. Nostalgia can definitely feel sad and or bad. Benji makes it even crazier with nostalgia about things that haven't happened
ReplyDeleteI can relate to this. I like how you describe the thoughts as a child of "Oh, I won't turn out like that when I get older," and the inevitable sense of disappointment when it happens. Sag Harbor also struck close to home for me, because I've recently had points where I feared what the future as an adult held for me.
ReplyDeleteI think that reading Sag Harbor right now is especially moving because we're watching the seniors head off to wherever they're going and we know that we'll be in the same place next year. This summer is our last one as high school kids, and it's kinda frightening to think about how we'll be leaving so much behind when we move to college. I hope we can stay close to the people that are important to us.
ReplyDeleteYeah I agree that the part about how Sag Harbor being a place for kids only, that once you reach a certain age, you just aren't supposed to go anymore. It reminds me a bit of sleepover parties. When I was younger, I would have sleepovers with my friends all the time. But as time went on, it seemed like we were outgrowing them, so we gradually dropped it.
ReplyDeleteReading Sag Harbor really made me think about how short childhood is. I've always been aware that some day I would grow up into an adult but realizing that eventually I won't live in the same house anymore or that my friend group might change as I grow older feels weird.
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